Had my very first full day alone at the store I am working on last saturday, and opened the store today having my first 3 call orders.
Which is one of my biggest fears, I have dreaded it since I ever started, AND NOW they came.
D8< I LIVED! I had no idea this job would help me so much with social issues, but man 8D Phones do not scare me anywhere close to what they used to! Even with the intense stress and crazy opening time this morning, I didnt have a problem at all 8D I am so happy, Iwant to roll down a river with my sexy pufferfish body! and I am so glad I took this job, even if every cell in my body screamed no xD
D8< frick, I highly suggest a store job to anyone who has any kind of social anxiety, it will suck and it will be horrible the first 5 months. But the more you do it and get thrown into it, the better it will be. It fixes so many things it hurts. And not to mention you feel like you belong in society for some reason xD
I mean having a fulltime drawing job is awesome since it is my passion, but it will not fill you in with social, out of confort, challenges in many important parts of your life. And it is super lonely. Helping people over the internet, is not the same as helping people face to face.
If I could change anything in my life, I would go back and smack 15-18 year old self me and kick my ass into work earlier, since doing it younger is way easier than doing it later >:C
I feel like I can punch walls and flowers will grow out of the forcesmacking
This feeling is so great It does drain you so hard though xD hense lack of activity for the last couple of days, been relaxing.
8D my friend also visited me as some might have noticed.She makes me laugh so hard xD <3
AND she brought my camera 8D so I have been all photowalking outside! so prepare for a soon to come another long photowalk which i will create like these!
8D hopefully with mike the bike this time so I can go futher. Maybe go to my mom who moved closer to me earlier this year!
and EEE my crystal shrimp is having eggs! so hopefully ill see new babies soon 8D
D8< I bought a mirror, thats important.
and then we have this
Watch it, love it and dance it! : D
